Wearing my 'Big Girl' Panties!!

Life is such a busy thing huh?? I feel like I have not slowed down since I got back on my feet last November!! Problem is, I have been soo very busy that when I have a moment, or a day with down time, I tend to sleep the day away knowing how much my body appreciates the rest....this leads me to the disorganization of my house ~ The Thanksgiving / Christmas decorations are still not put away properly!! I was very focused on work, home and kids until I fell in love last summer and that changed everything, even my priorities a bit... My house is in more of a disarray as I am traveling more so I am not home to take care of it like I used to... My son Garrett is awesome and helps out tremendously!

My sweetheart and I are in limbo of sorts.. we HATE being apart, but with the economy like it is we cannot even consider changing jobs much less our geographical location...school is still in session until early June so we are taking it as it comes... cherishing every moment we have together on our honeymoons...#27 was yet another AMAZING weekend together ~♥~

I have been putting all of our photos in an album and we have one FULL already!! I don't think I had this many photos of my ex-factors in years of marriage... We both enjoy the camera and document our time together with lots of fun!! Its almost like if I don't get them in an album now they will stay in the packages like Savanna's baby pictures still are.. I feel soo very guilty, Garrett has an awesome baby book, journal and lots of photo albums and Savanna has a half completed book and no journal and the photos still need to be put in albums... that's the way it goes with the 2nd child...

Savanna is growing up soo rapidly!!! She is all of a sudden 'girlie' with her hair and make up and clothes and even has a crush on a boy!!! Slow down my little princess!! I am not ready for her to grow up yet...

Garrett is trudging thru the last high school credit in his classes...He chose to finish school at an alternative school instead of traditional high school and I just wish for him that it was easier.. I am not prejudice at ALL and have raised my children to not see color where people are concerned but he is the ONLY white kid at the morning session of these classes and I know its not a great environment for him, bad spirits & all! He is going to check out the local community college and I am praying that there will be another option for him that is better than what he is dealing with every day...

My hair is growing long again... I am always ready to cut it off at this point b/c it does not hold the curl for a 2nd day and I HATE putting lots of product in my hair.. My hair was 'stick' straight all my life until after I had my daughter.. then my body chemistry changed and the white hair grew in and it was curly as could be!! I have learned to deal with it and having high maintenance hair is NOT my thing... but I do have beautiful hair so for that I am grateful... now I just have to decide if I am going to go see Pete and let him do his magic or not! I LOVE ALL things GIRLY!!

Work life is crazier than ever! 'Tweety Bird' is just that, and screws things up more than she helps out but I am not the one paying her soo.... I just have to let it go!!

I caused some drama of my own the weekend before this last one (not really intentionally but non the less I could have refrained) Now I just have to deal with the aftermath and see what is clear after the dust settles!! I am reading a book about 'Mean Girls all grown up' and it has been most enlightening!! I try to practice the Golden Rule on a daily basis and its amazing to me how many people are just out for themselves without a care in the world for those around them... I wish sometimes I could give the world just a little therapy... everyone would benefit :) and the world would be a happier place because people would realize how important it is to learn self love... then everything else falls into place! Dream on Sarah........

I Love My Blog and miss it when I don't have more time in my days / weeks to unload all the CRAZI thoughts racing through my head.. I still journal at night when I cannot sleep.. Good thing I don't have Internet @ home right now.. I may never get to sleep! I am comfortable wearing my BIG GIRL Panties, how about you?????

Christmas cheer and cutting the apron strings...

My G-Man and Munchkin have grown up so much since last year!!

I cherish these moments, they go by so fast! This is the 3 of us last year at the beach right after Thanksgiving...

Love these Christmas images...

I am almost finished with the presents this year... I have 2 wonderful children that I get to spend Christmas with ~ I don't think the 3 of us have had one together in quite a few years, so long ago I cannot remember :(

Santa will follow us to Carolina, it will be one to remember! We will be with family and friends for the Holidays ~ usually we make it for Thanksgiving but not Christmas so its a real treat for everyone.
Today is the Christmas Luncheon with Savanna for her last day of school this year ~ it's an Italian menu so I made Tiramisu last night, it was the easy recipe with vanilla wafers and cream cheese but will taste good none the less :) She is in the local 5th grade Spelling Bee! I am soo very proud of her!! She is definately gotten a better sense of herself and I see a confidence in her that she didn't have last year so its an improvement.. My little munchkin is growing up into a wanna be teenager!! yikes!! SLOW DOWN I tell her!! at least she has started accepting being a girl...she will finally wear the bras I bought her, we just had to find one that wasn't itchy.. I remember those days very well except I HAD to wear a bra in the 3rd grade, now that was torture! She will enjoy the toys under the tree this year but is on the verge of wanting everything electronic ~ We redecorated her room this month, her colors are black and aquamarine ~ No PINK was her request..I will post photos after this weekend when we get her new bed...all these changes and I know I am getting older in years but still feel as young as I did when Garrett was born, just with a few more wrinkles!

Garrett has taken the month of December off for school this year, he is making himself useful around the house and writing music most of the time... Its hard to imagine that this might be the last Christmas he is under my roof at 'our' home together, makes me sad but it is a process in life ~ Growing up is never easy and I think sometimes its harder on the parents because you want to do so much for them but they will never learn if you do it that way! We have been collecting household items for him this year so he will be a little prepared when he does get a place of his own. He will not leave my house unprepared if I can help it! He was hard to buy presents for this year because all he wanted was money for another tattoo... I found a few items to give him as well as stocking stuffers, its so different from years past when he wrote letters to santa with a list of what he wanted. Its been a year of milestones for Garrett & I both, He waited to do alot of things this year and I was not pushing him to be an adult ~ I wanted him to enjoy his teenage years, have something to reflect and look back on with warm fuzzy memories, I dont have much of those at all because I chose to be an adult on my own at age 17!

Life goes on each and every day and I am learning to be happy in the moment ~ We never know when its our last...Just like childhood, time is fleeting....

This is my Crazi Crazi

RELIEF!! That is what I am feeling right at the moment... I have soo many doctor appointments to keep since the accident and getting a ride everywhere can be soo very frustrating!! I am grateful for all my friends who help me out on a daily basis and I know that I would be lost without their dedication to our friendship in my time of need. I know this is only a temporary situation but its still a pain in the ASS!! I cant wait to drive again!! Not to mention that the ex-factor isn't taking Savanna to school ~ stating she is sick and I cannot verify it, she doesn't sound sick....I have good health insurance for her yet he never wants to take her to the doctor when she isn't feeling well...What am I to do??? I know her grades are good but thats not a reason to let her play 'hooky' whenever...and she has to miss alot of school before it is considered truant even though he is willfully not taking her just because he "doesnt feel like it" is how he explained it to me...Calgon cannot take me far enough away from him!!!!

I had to cancel my physical therapy appointment today, the office is crazy with the boss out of town and I could not get everything done if I had take the 2 hours out of my day to go...I am doing my ' PT homework' daily and will make sure I go the appointment I have on Friday...I don't want my healing to suffer b/c of my dedication to my job, I just want to be able to sleep at night without worrying about what I did not get done in the office. I am taking time to type this out for a quick break from the phones etc... Having just gotten back to work before they left for Europe for 2 weeks was a little overzealous on my part but they had this trip planned since late last year and I didn't want them to cancel it...so here I am! I am anxious about everything I am expected to handle and I know I am capable, its just alot for one person to shoulder... The company I work for manages about 500 residential homes all over Jacksonville and staying on top of it is a nightmare for ONE person!! Coming back after being gone for 3 months is not easy either!! I know I can handle this its just not an ideal situation.

I talked to my BFF Nichole in California last night. I introduced her to this amazing theraputic blogging page last week, she loves it!! We have known each other since we were 18 years old and I cherish our friendship so very much, we don't get to see each other in person very often but are always in each others hearts. Its ironic how we have gone through the same experiences in our lives just at different times and have been able to lean on each other every time...We shared our pregnancies with our daughters across the miles, I was in Florida she was in California and we were due a month apart...I was happy to have her to share it all with and I am thankful to know she is a forever friend no matter how long we go without a real 'in person' hug!! Talking to her is always theraputic for me, whether its about stuff I am going thru or her stuff, its good to reflect on how far I have come and I am happy I can help her out with the knowledge that comes from 'been there done that'.

If I can just make it thru till Thursday night... can't wait to see my sweetheart, I miss him soo very much! I cannot imagine how the military spouses do it for months at a time, God Bless them!

I am anxious about the trip to Columbia for Thanksgiving. I know it will all work out, just stressing about everything right now!! I hate that Savanna is supposedly sick but I cannot talk to her and dont know when she will be back at school, hopefully tomorrow he will take her back....Hopefully....and tomorrow is another day :)